Moving On

When all is said and done
I'm better off without you
No matter how much it hurts

The tears have run dry
My heart's so cold
There's a hole inside you caused
When you left me on floor

You never understood me
Even as I opened my mind to you
All the lies you weaved
I can see clearly now

Drowning

Spiraling out of control
down dark tunnels of fear
getting smaller the farther I sink
until I'm pressed in at all sides

Shaking and shivering as panic sets in
"God please don't let this be happening again!"
silent screams racing through my mind
trying desperately to break free

Knowing how to escape doesn't mean I will

focus breathe move 

focus fight distract

reach there you go 

fight the fear

crawl don't stop!

Breathing in hard won freedom
looking over my shoulder

Sensing the faceless grin
biding its time waiting for me to slip
to pull me back down to that black hell
knowing one day it will win

Not So Easily Fooled

You took me for a fool
spinning such pretty lies
Trying to pull me deep
under your spell

I saw through the facade
seeing the pitiful man
You try to hide
behind a painted mask

The darkness is inviting
not your tricks with mirrors
You've forgotten the light
that's needed to grow

Thanks, but no thanks
don't need your illusions
I'll find my own way
to my salvation